I am not Pathetic

I had a stressful day yesterday. Well, everyday is a stressful day except that yesterday was different. I didn’t just deal with my toddlers but also with the two week piled up laundry plus two annoying maintenance personnel.

It has been four months since we moved to this new place and everything has been in place well except for some things beyond our control. This place is owned by J’s close friend, which is managed by her mom. We were expecting that because they’re friends at least they would deliver the unit to us properly. Oh well, some things doesn’t work that way. When we moved here, there were a lot of things that needs to get fixed--broken outlets, doorknobs and dirty restrooms. That we can still manage but one thing beyond my tolerance is the two-clogged sink. One clogged kitchen sink and other one is the laundry sink. Yes, I complained because I am the only one who does the chores and here’s to hoping that I can finish everything in a matter of minutes. But no, imagine me washing the 3 sets of dishes for two hours and doing a 3-day worth of laundry for 5 hours? Imagine the time wasted for faulty things at home. It adds up to my stress level on top of the stress with my kids.

After a month of complain from the landlady, yesterday I got a knock from her about three in the afternoon right after my kids fell asleep in our living room while I was washing my two week piled up laundry. She came with two of her maintenance personnel. We were chatting when the two personnel went inside the laundry area and without any go signal from me they started to do their jobs. I wasn’t even halfway from washing the clothes so there were scattered basins with wet laundry there. Then they started moving things and then stinky smell filled the room while they were telling me that the tubes were clogged as if trying to insist that I was the one who caused the clogged pipes. I didn’t answer them even if I was already pissed. Three hours past, they still haven’t found the source of the clog and decided to cut the pipes and irrigate it with running water. Then the other maintenance personnel told me that they would continue it tomorrow because it was already late! Boy I got furious! It’s like telling me to leave an explore laparotomy patient on an OR table open without stitching up! Worse thing is that the laundry area was full of clogged and stinky grime.  Then I asked him what would happen to the stinky grime scattered everywhere? (E di linisin na lang!) Oh my. I can do spongebath and change my patient’s diapers as well as my kids but the dirty grime? It’s way beyond my tolerance already. So they were in a hurry and chopped the pipes and put it back again and less than an hour they were already done. They saw my annoyed face so they cleaned the laundry area.



While they maintenance personnel were busy doing their jobs, my landlady asked me if I don’t have a househelp. Obviously I don’t have because I was the only one at home and the kids. And then she uttered an unsolicited comment, “kawawa ka naman kinakaya mo lahat ang mga gawaing bahay? Pati pag aalaga ng mga bata?” In a composed manner I said yes. And she told me I should hire help or get some of my relatives to look after my kids. On the other hand, she was just concerned because she knows how hard it is to maintain a house and take care of the kids.


I don’t want to feel sorry for being able to take care of my kids with the help of any other people except J. It’s not being pathetic but I just feel that I can do everything without bothering people to help me with MY chores and my responsibilities. It’s more of a pride that I can at least maintain a house and take care of my family. I know it’s not easy to be at home and no off duty once in a blue moon but it is my choice. I don’t want to regret the decisions I made because I know I am happy about it. So I am not pathetic. I am just happy and blessed that I am able to do my responsibilities.


Agree mommies?




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